Friday, April 27, 2012

I Interrupt the Normal Blogcast . . . It Isn't Enough

Lately my posts have been few and far between, not on purpose, per se. I mean it's purpose because I haven't posted, yet it's not like I didn't want to. I would love to post at least every other day, but most times I honestly run out of words. It seems like a fluke that me, the teacher and writer would run out of words but I do. Told by a great writer, Nikki Giovanni, there is no such thing as writer's block, just a lack of information, (got a chance to meet her in undergraduate--what an honor!) I must get informed. 


Admittedly I don't know enough. No matter the subject, I don't know enough. It is not my desire to know all; I just want to know enough.  Not enough quick information to hold a conversation and impress the crowd, but enough to actually feel informed and knowledgeable on the matter to share its content and glory. Sure I know some academic subject matter--but what I know is not enough. Enough to reproduce succession of change in those who I encounter repeatedly. 


By no means do I doubt my calling. I was created to do this teacher gig. In the depths of my being it rumbles to be feed and to be free. Though I believe tradition interpretations have limited some of my ability, this is the place for me. I classroom I will never leave. It fits me just right. 


Nor do I doubt my sustenance. I am well equipped for the ride. What is need has already been stored within me. Now is the time for it to merge itself and activate. It is my birthright to grow. I shall be remiss if I dare stop growing when someone willing shed blood for my life. The mere fact that I wake daily yes is a blessing but is not enough. Growth is required of me. Demanded of me. I have yet to reach the level of satisfactory existence and doubt if I ever. I cannot sleep on this post for I haven't acquired enough to simply just rest in the shade. There is room--though plenty have come, and gone, and accepted the call, yet there is enough room for more. 



3 comments:

  1. Half empty or half full either way theres still room, THERES STILL MORE TO BE DONE!! like raking the yard in the fall, u may rake all the leaves from the yard but if u take the time to look up you will see theres more work to be done. mookie

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