Monday, March 23, 2009

Where Have I Gone???

So I have totally been neglecting my writing in the last few weeks. It has been forever and a day since I last blogged and honestly I don't know why. My guy Mr. Lovely even texted me this weekend and asked about why haven't I been blogging. I told him I ran out of things to say. The added email from Shawn really urged me to write today. Seriously I don't know why. This syndrome is not only present in my writing, it's in my job and my other activities. I have no clue what it is or how it came about. My normal routine is to work my ass-off to grade papers, plan my lessons (a month in advance might I add), edit my school's newsletter way before my deadline, and then do all the other stuff I do on the regular i.e. tutor, kick with my fam and my friends, etc. Now its like I have no motivation to do any of it. I so what a new surrounding; new job, new house, new car, semi-new friends (maybe just associates!!) and a new city.

It's not that I am not content with my life. I am eternally grateful but I feel like I have been in this place--which I can't define--way too long. I told my cousin yesterday I think I'm ready for the next big thing in my life, love. Like real love. But unlike Mary I am not searching for it.

Maybe I lost, ehhh I don't know. But whatever it is I gotta get over it like the Flu. Gotta find the combination of remedies to rid myself of "this place." Whatever it maybe called, I don't wanna be here anymore....

1 comment:

  1. I think the issue is something that we are all facing. Right now everyone's mentality is to just survive and maintain.

    So, we are all in a holding pattern.